Brocky

Probably not mate but if there is it'll be in an bout an hour.

No correct guesses yet, will keep it open for a few more hours.

Let's play a game... first person to guess the correct hand can have an hour of poker coaching from myself if they so wish. One guess per person. Info: First hand of a 25 euro heads up, no info on villain. 1000 stacks.

Sorry for the short stream tonight, was losing seemingly every all in so decided to stop playing for a bit. May be back tonight but definitely tomorrow. Tough times!

Evening guys and gals. Apologies for not being back at the grind as soon as I said I would. I tried to put in some volume yesterday and earlier today but was still feeling a bit 'meh' about it all. I've decided that I grind the hardest when I have solid things to focus on, hence why I set pretty clear volume and ROI goals at the start of the year but also why I enjoy streaming. As a result I feel like doing another sort of bankroll challenge will help, just to give me that extra incentive to keep going when times get tough. So starting from tonight, I am going to be attempting (and streaming for the most part) a €1k to €100k challenge. I know it's super ambitious but you've gotta have these sorts of goals in life to go for! I'll be starting at the 25s and will be going live on stream now <3

I don't really know what to say anymore. I'm playing a guy who is bet/calling a jam on an AA8 with 4 high, I'm surprised I stopped at 3k tbh. The money isn't a sensitive issue at all though, I was prepared to push the shot taking by moving up and up so I'm prepared to deal with the financial consequences, but the manner in which I lost still seems strange to this day. I'm not going to comment further on BRM after this post because everyone has their own opinion on the subject but I feel people are waaaaay too conservative with their approach to BRM in general. The opportunity cost generally far outweighs the negatives of moving up, especially if you're disciplined in moving down. Losing 3k is frustrating but I was up around 5k; if you're not willing to lose 60% of your profit against the player in those pictures then the money means too much to you. Ultimately, as a professional, you should be over the moon to have an opportunity to play such a player at such high stakes, it's what the whole dream is about. If I want to print a solid but unspectacular £2k per month I'll go back to being an accountant.

Hey guys. Just a quick update, I've dabbled in a few HU today but confidence is utterly shot to pieces tbh. I've always maintained I don't believe a poker site would rig a game and I don't believe Unibet is rigged but when you have multiple sessions such as the previous one you start to question what is real, what is right and generally everything about your game/poker. It really is hard to explain; I've lost 15-20bi probably a hundred plus times before but this was different (plus multiple sessions in a row against massive whales), yet I can't change the past I can only affect the future. I've got plenty of bankroll to be playing my normal games so I imagine I'll be back on stream at the some point tomorrow at the 25/50s. For tonight I'm really not in the mood to grind though, the pain is still real. Gl.

I will address the rest of the points separately when I'm at a computer but I'd just like to say of course I will suffer from entitlement tilt against a player shoving any two, who wouldn't? I've sat here playing for over 10 years to improve my heads up game and I end up getting crushed by plays my girlfriend could make knowing full well that money I lose will just end up in another reg's pocket. It's a horrible feeling and I defy anyone to not feel some level of entitlement tilt over that. Also, I don't think I'm being outrageous by asking the poker gods just to let me run at EV in these games, that's not too much to ask for. Those hands are literally ridiculous, even as one-offs, but you put them all together in one session, on top of 2 previous sessions that were similar and you start to question everything you know.

It's funny that everyone is an expert. You're talking to a guy who's been playing heads up for 8-10 years, who has quit his job, about bankroll management. I don't want to come across as a ❤️♥️❤️, even though I don't really care if I do, but you're not the first to try and give me amazing advice on where I went wrong. Let me just clear up a couple of things. Firstly, I'm not broke, I've busted the account that I built up from a 6 euro cash ticket, even after withdrawing over 2k pounds from that. So I've made 2k in January, not terrible. Secondly, of course few k swings are standard at the 200s but my issue comes with how over the past 3-4 days I've played 3 massive whales at the 200s and I've definitely lost to 2 of them, maybe all 3, over a decent-ish sample given the structure (less shallow than 90% of my heads up volume - hyper turbos on Stars/FTP). The guy tonight is getting it in with any two cards and getting there in ridiculous fashion. When he's not behind he's coolering the ❤️♥️❤️ out of me. The first player from a few days back was similar, but not quite as erratic, yet I couldn't win vs him either. If you've watched my stream I think you'll agree that I know how to play heads up. My results on Unibet at the 25s for example will show an 8% ROI over at least 10k games. I can sit there crushing the 25s against better players than the ones that I've lost to this week, winning flips, holding in 70%+ situations, yet not for the first time on Unibet (probably the 10th), I've moved up and run like I do above. I don't know what games or stakes you play (I'd be interested to know, seeing as you're an expert) but when you're a heads up poker professional, you do not pass up on spots like this. I was willing to bust my account today because the flip side is running just at EV would've profited me thousands. People are generally far too conservative with BRM and it costs them a massive amount of EV long term. I'll likely go and take my bankroll to Stars for a bit or maybe I'll just grind the 25s for a week again, I'm not sure yet but I'm definitely feeling a bit disillusioned with Unibet right now. I write this blog because not only do I like to track my progress but I believe people want to see that it's still possible to make money in poker, especially when it's becoming increasingly difficult. The last thing I want when I've just lost 15bi to a guy who is licking his screen while he plays is a bunch of experts telling me I should play lower and use different BRM. When you live by the sword you die by the sword but I'm allowed to be ridiculously frustrated by the constant poundings the RNG gives me and until you've ever experienced something remotely close please do not tell me what I should and shouldn't be doing. I'm probably done with this blog for now because I don't feel like I need to explain or justify anything I do. If I continue playing on Unibet hopefully I'll see you guys around. GL.

Well the inevitable has happened. Unfortunately it's time to say goodbye from me. The session I have just had makes the others look great in comparison. I have just lost 3k at the 200s to a guy who is 4x'ing every hand, calling shoves with any two cards, getting it in with any cards on any flop and he has absolutely destroyed me. I can no longer do this. Here's a couple... Please just take a few minutes to look through some of these and I'll explain when the money went in: A8 (top right), no chance of holding A6 (top middle) all in pre AK (top right) all in pre JT (bottom left) all in pre, 8 gives me a straight so he just hits the 4 K6 (bottom middle) all in on flop K8 (bottom right) all in on the flop lol... Plus a bunch more I can't capture because the HH replayer only lets you see a certain number of hands. No point grinding the 25/50s when I should be up around 6-10k over the past 3-4 days from the guys I've played in that time, yet I'm down around 4-5k? It's absolutely unbelievable. Good luck guys, maybe I'll be back one day. Just found this one as well lol..

Not sure yet mate. I'm undecided between a day of not much poker after what's happened the last few days or doing a late-ish stream, probably around 10pm CET.

Thanks guys, I ended up losing like 5 in a row at the end of the night as well, it was just becoming stupid. Time to get the thread back on track though. I'm going to move back down to the 25/50s and just rebuild some confidence. I have no doubt I'm good enough to at least be a small winner at the 100s+ but when variance is against you there is nothing you can do. I'm gutted because if I'd had just ran at EV I would likely have hit 2/3m+ challenge points within a month or so and the rakeback would've been insane. Not to be though.

Cheers mate! In reference to the grind, I'm bored of complaining, but I don't know what else to say to be honest. Anyone that saw my stream tonight can vouch for how brutal it was and it's been no better since grinding off-stream. Every day I think to myself that the bad luck in the past has no impact on today's session, that running bad at the 200s previously has no impact on how they go today but every single day I just got worn down more and more by this ❤️♥️❤️. It's so draining, it's so demoralising. I sit here and think "this just has to turn around at some point" but variance has no memory and it doesn't have to do anything. I'm so lost at the moment, it's not the money that bothers me, I am not fazed by the stakes I am playing but it's just how relentless the beating is. I was playing a reg at the 100s just now, he wins AJ vs AQ and AJ vs AK for stacks on 2 games simultaneously, then in the final game I check/raise 64 on A86 because I know he's going to go mental, he snap jams Q5, I hold and have 1850 chips yet still lose the game. The blinds were 30/60 and he doubled once then I folded 7 hands in a row. I know he's jamming almost any two, my calling range should be super wide yet I'm sitting here getting dealt 52o, 92o etc. It's such a horrible feeling because you can't do anything. I'm probably just going to move down stakes but the challenge points offer a great earning potential at the 100/200s. It's super disappointing but I don't know how else to deal with such negative variance.

Hard to be an end boss when you run like I do. Another session at the 200s getting absolutely destroyed by the RNG.

Going live in 35 mins! (9:30 CET)

Occasionally I do but you have to show these regs who the real boss is sometimes. Well, that's the plan anyway 🤣

"Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery"

Poker is such a weird ❤️♥️❤️ game. It's the only thing in the whole of the world where you can be the world's worst player and you can beat the world's best on multiple occasions. Today has possibly been the most draining session I've ever had. I've lost money, not much, but I would imagine my EV would be somewhere around €2k+, yet I'm down. I can't even begin to explain what I've been through tonight, I really can't. I feel like nobody goes through this at these stakes. Honestly, if I ran at EV at the 200s I'd be so wealthy it's unreal. I carried on playing the same rec from earlier, we must have played around 90 games today. I know nobody cares about other peoples bad beats but I feel so helpless at the 200s I need to post some just as a reminder that it's not me just getting outplayed. Let's give you a bit of perspective on the guy I should've crushed for 2-3k. This is the last game, I limp at 23bb, he jams pre. Here's a few that I could find: All in on turn, no worries. All in on the flop with a gutshot :Rofl: Couldn't get pics of some of the others but here we go... Just the top full house into quads against a guy who's been bluffing like it's going out of fashion I check raise 2 pair on the turn fairly big, obviously his pair of 3s is a snap call... This is the reg from the other day who always changes name. I check raise knowing he's going to go crazy.. oh just the running tens for you sir I also had another hand vs that guy where I raise pre with AT he flats, flop A73, he check/calls my c bet, turn T (no f/d on board), he checks, I barrel, he jams, I snap, he has KQ and the river is the beautiful jack. I really don't care how bitter or whatever I come across right now. For as long as I just keep getting absolutely ❤️♥️❤️ed by the RNG I will moan about my luck. On the plus side I got over 150k challenge points today but most of the rakeback I received just minimises the losses as opposed to increasing profit. I guess I'm supposed to wake up again tomorrow and put in another 10 hours as I've done today. It's hard to find the reason to right now...

Just thought I'd give a quick update while I'm waiting for games. Stupidly won a bunch betting on one of Andrei's tennis tips last night then put £300 of it on a horse race at 1.83 I think, then chucked that on Spurs at 2.48. I think I ended up making about £1.8k from those 3. I then wanted to get back involved at the 200s because I could, had a guy who was really not that good, ended up €1.6k up at one point, he's getting it in ridiculously bad, ridiculously tilted and then all of a sudden he just starts getting there time and time again. He ends up winning 5 in a row, we start 2 tabling and before I know it another guy (reg maybe?) sits me and I'm bloody 5 tabling the 200s. It's out of control, I'm clicking all over the place and I'm not sure what day of the week it is, but I refused to lose this rec. Jesus christ, I lost 8 out of 10 at one point and I was pretty sure I was going to bust my account. I'm literally getting coolered on every table so I decide that enough is enough and I need to stop this session, rebuild tomorrow. As I'm finishing up I think I win 4 of the 5 tables open and to my surprise I'm actually up €1.1k still (about 200 of it is rakeback). One more for luck and I lose. Shock! So I've moved down to the 100s for now, first game I lose JJ vs 88 (here we go...), still up a decent chunk today, especially if you include the bets and I've earned a bunch in rakeback. Graph to follow later, it's all over the place because it is like 50% 25s with little variance and then 10/15bi swing at the 200s so it just looks stupid!

Completely agree mate. I'm going to go live on stream in 15 mins (3:30 CET)!

Thanks @MetalWolf, @UAC & @GR1ZZL3R. I'll probably not respond to every point individually because I'm definitely going to forget what was said but I think it's important to reflect now that I've slept. I had an interesting chat with @AndreiBN last night which helped me realise that I'm really not disappointed in pushing the run good. We look at things very differently, he is conservative in his approach to sports betting whereas I am aggressive and believe that you need to move up to maximise profit. He asked me why I didn't just solely grind the 25s and I explained that I think not only am I capped at what I can make at the 25s, I only need 25% of the ROI at the 100s to be making more money after rakeback. I then started thinking what I would've made at the 25s over 750 games, probably somewhere around 1.5k, yet I made double that even with a 1k downswing included, how can I be unhappy with that? I do think one of the biggest things holding people back is they get comfortable in the stakes they're playing. If you play HUSNG's and you give yourself a 5bi shot at the stake above every now and then, you may just never look back. I made 41 buy ins at the 50s in just 236 games last week, all because I was prepared to take that opportunity. I guess the flip side is dealing with the inevitable downswing when it happens. Mentally it's tough, but I removed myself from the poker lobby last night because sometimes you need to just step away. Time and sleep are great healers though and I have money in the bank so I'm likely going to give myself 20 more buy ins at the 100s for a couple of reasons. Firstly, if I lose 20 then it's time to move down and take an honest assessment of why I'm losing 20. Secondly, those challenge points man. I'm at 246k already, if I can just play the 100s without going broke for a couple of months I will earn 2-3m points and the rakeback from that alone should keep me at the 100s even with a downswing. It's like one of those weird scenarios where you need to break through that first barrier (3m points without going busto) to then be set up for a long time. I counted around 13k rakeback for the 3m points, it would be hard to go broke with an extra 130 buy ins in the bank. Live by the sword, die by the sword. Edit: Can I just say I really appreciate every message I receive on here and Twitch, I definitely wouldn't be as motivated if it wasn't for that.

Day 7 Nope, don't wanna talk about it. Started well enough, up 500/600 at one point, went on stream tonight and just lost every all in, played 1 rec who was going crazy every time I had draws (which I wasn't improving with) yet seemed to snap fold every time I had a strong hand. Lost god knows how many in a row, 8 or 9, at the 100s. I then just super tiltedly gave myself a 3bi shot at the 200s (would put the account down to 3k if I lose these 3), lose the first game, win the 2nd then just get coolered into AA, AK and lose a flip. Ran like absolute toilet. One game we were at 40/80, guy was limping 90% of buttons, I didn't hit a single pair, not one single pair. The one time I check raised as a bluff he snap jammed. Ridiculous. Probably down somewhere around 1k for the day in the end. I'm still up around 3k for the week I guess as I withdrew 300, back to the 50s tomorrow. I would estimate this is probably the 10th time on Unibet I've moved up to 100s/200s and just lost all in after all in when it matters. Put me at the 25s and I'll sit there winning flip after flip but it's the complete opposite after moving up. Super frustrated but still in a good position for the year. Failed my tilt goal, completed profit/volume/ROI/stream goals. Will do graphs tomorrow maybe, they're going to look super horrible now with that downswing though. Whatever.

Late night 100s stream is live <3

I think that KK vs Q6 board is horrible for you. It's good for your chances of winning the hand that the flush draw didn't get there but in terms of looking for the value you're trying to get with the turn check/raise and big river bet, what are you hoping to get called by? T9 gets there, as does QJ, 76 and 54ss. You're basically hoping to be called by QT which is really, really thin.