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Thanks @Silver1 I appreciate the advice.

I'm getting closer but wonder when I'm going to get a break. Cashed 3 out of 5 tonight. Just finished 18th in the bounty high. I got no bounties but it wasn't for want of trying. I was probably allin to win a bounty 8 times and was never dominated. Always ahead or behind 40/60. Couldn't win a thing. Then in space of 3 hands im out. 

pushed 89 into short stack KQ, he held and I missed bounty.

Threebet allin AK and called by A9 and they rivered a split pot. 

Next hand push 9 10 suited and get called by KQ and it holds. 

Win just one of them and maybe I make the final... I just can't seem to win an allin when it matters. 

Got points in 2 other events (both nanos, cashed both) but the cashes are insignificant to me at the moment. It's the wanting to play well and get rewarded for it that I'm after.

@theMachine you currently have €0.37 coming your way don't panic! 🤣

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This run is ❤️♥️❤️ unbearable....

Only in the realms of space and astronomy do the figures exist to describe the odds of losing all the things I have this week. I have never EVER been on a run like this where not only can I not win a hand, but every decision I make, good or bad, is punished. 

3 bet 23BB's allin in a good position? Yeah I should be able to add 7 BB's to my stack here they will never call... oh wait... they call K7 and Yep there it is K on the river to beat my A7.

Reraise allin with top set as an above average stack against chip leader who has led on a dodgy board? Yeh I will get maximum value against this open ended or flush draw... oh wait... they've called with a gutshot and yep there it is!

Just outside the points with a good stack and AK suited? UTG+2 knows whats a great idea! To push 50 BB's allin! Not caring about the min points I see a great oppurtunity to double against... 44? ok... Oh cool K on the flop nice I'll be one of the leaders now.... oh no wait 4 on the river cya later then.

Raise from mid. I'm on button with QQ. 3 bet allin 25BB's. HUGEEE stack next reraises allin. But it's ok right? He's just being a bounty gannet he probably has trash. Oh, he has Q8. Excellent ohhhhhh no course board is 6 7 9 10 cya later then.

Sneak in a pot with a raised pot with suited connecter. Flop pair and open ended. Bet, Move allin, snapped off by top pair who's 'snuck' in with J2. But wait I've turned a flush draw too. Surely I'm going to be fine. But no. It holds. Too many outs. 

I know @Brocky knows what I mean but it is so difficult to comprehend this sort of run. It should be almost mathmatically impossible but it continues to be relentless. You question every play you make. You wake up and load up games dreading the first bad beat which sets up your mental state for the rest of the day. You theorize that because you have the casino banned and haven't had to deposit much that Unibet is punishing you into spending more money.

I'm not saying I make great decisions. I've made a lot of bad decisions during this series and more so due to the mental state. But its a double whammy when you consistantly see such awful play being so richly rewarded. What's scary is even through the bad decisions and being allin with trash I'm often still ahead!! 

There are very few people on this forum that could even begin to relate because I don't believe there are many who play the necassary volume to encounter runs like this. But if there are guys out there that do feel free to post some warm advice! 

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@MetalWolf wrote:

This run is ❤️♥️❤️ unbearable....

There are very few people on this forum that could even begin to relate because I don't believe there are many who play the necassary volume to encounter runs like this. But if there are guys out there that do feel free to post some warm advice! 


If it is affecting you I'd normally suggest taking a week out and relax and come back in a better frame of mind.  However, not so easy mid series!  So turn it into a game.  Focus on making the correct decision for each hand, and don't worry about what happens next. Make the objective of your session to play your best rather than be results orientated, and just give a wry smile and say 'whatever' and move on to the next hand when you suffer a bad beat.  And remember - if people didn't play as badly as in the hands that you have described then it would be a lot tougher to make money in the long run.  When you see a bad play like that just remind yourself that is exactly what you want to see.  Luck will balance itself out.  Ride the bad luck out now and reap the good luck when it arrives. Keep focusing on making the correct decisions and ignore the variance. You know you are a good player so keep going.

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Thanks @sgriff for the comments and you are absolutely right and I need to look at hands and scenarios in a vaccum and focus more on wether I made the right play. You have my utmost respect and I appreciate the feedback.

There is more to this for me too. I often feel these types of series on a rec site are a great benefit to players like me who are used to grinding and satting and having decent scores. Many people from other sites feel the same as I see regs names from Skypoker etc all over the place. But this kind of series takes a huge toll on personal and family life. So it’s double tilting for me when I don’t feel justly rewarded as I’m missing out on family time.

also, with the blog, I feel a huge sense of pressure. Yeah I’m a good player but there are millions of them. Not many that open themselves up honestly and stay transparent on a blog though. It becomes almost embarrassing to be transparent when failing so hard.

On to today I guess and today’s prizepools could render all this sadness obsolete.

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Keep going @MetalWolf.

I know what you mean about the toll the series has, and that is why I'm not playing it (apart from using a couple of tickets I won), despite previous success.  I found playing 2 weeks non-stop too tiring along with a full time job early the next day, and of course it's a big impact on family time.  It's still very tempting though as I do really like the concept and the challenge. I'm playing the 25/25 at The Vic next weekend so that killed the series as a possibility for me, and to be honest I was secretly glad as I didn't want to get tempted back in after remembering the impact last time.  I just wish they would have a blank day every 4 days to give a bit of recovery time, especially as the site is aimed at recreational players.    

'It becomes almost embarrassing to be transparent when failing so hard.' -  You aren't failing!  If you are getting it in good then you are succeeding, just not being rewarded for it.  And I know that you are getting it in good - you knocked me out one of the qualifiers by getting it in good.

Good luck tonight.

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@sgriff Thanks mate. That would be a good idea to have a break every few days. There is no way that recs can challenge for the leaderboards in its current format. Haha sorry about the qualifier but at least I didn’t donk you! 

Best of luck in the 25/25! Im not planning to play live at the moment because baby will be due in less than 2 months, plus the structure of the MK tournament didn’t exactly make me want to rush back for a Unibet uk event. I am considering one last shot at UO London but hope to see you on some sort of tour soon mate!

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It's a hard knock life.

@MetalWolf The fact you're putting your results out there is highly commendable, how many blogs do we see where huge challenges are started, reports are made for 2-3 weeks while things are going well, then they fade away or stop completely. At least you're out there battling, along with @Brocky and one or two others, reporting all  your highs and lows, not just the good stuff. You will make a comeback at sometime, wether it's this series, the next or the normal grind, as long as you know you're doing it right and have faith in yourself. Don't beat yourself up, there are enough out there will do it for you.

What's to be embarrased about, you're having a poor run, no shame at all. I've virtually given up on cash games, that's embarrasing seeing the standard of players but I will probably return at some point, I just have to get the mental attitude right. 

 

Run Good and Prosper.* 👍

 

*And keep reporting. 😃

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Cheers @GR1ZZL3R nice one. What’s crazy is I played 3 normal mtts two days ago and came 3rd,3rd,5th and ran ok. It’s like some conspiracy to stop me doing well in UOS lol

i will always keep reporting. I would be really disappointed with myself to stop reporting and leaning on the community for help just because the profits are falling. 

Best of luck mate.

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@GR1ZZL3R wrote:

It's a hard knock life.

@MetalWolf The fact you're putting your results out there is highly commendable, how many blogs do we see where huge challenges are started, reports are made for 2-3 weeks while things are going well, then they fade away or stop completely.


@GR1ZZL3R are you talking about me?  :)

@MetalWolf  Fight like a hamster! Be like a hornet or Jon Snow on the dragon! :Popeye:

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@GR1ZZL3R are you talking about me?  :)

 

@pinki No-one in particular mate, :Cheeky: it just seems there are so many challenges don't run the full course, for whatever reason, fading away to nothing. @MetalWolf  and @Brocky still put their results out good or bad,  and it must help some strugglers knowing the downswings can happen to us all, not just the also rans. I like the blogs that tell it as it is and don't just appear when things are going well, @psrquack @theMachine @pinki @MoreTBC  (and others. ) I know you and I and others are struggling to find our way, and for me discussing it does help, so keep writing and I'll keep reading. :Smile:

 


 

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I must of moaned enough for them to push the doom switch back off. I hope so anyway.

Cashed 4 of 5 events I played last night. Only one I didn't was the nano rebuy where I went out right before the bubble AK to AA. 

Snuck into the 25 low money. Had no right to with my stack but those around me were gambling for some reason. 

Also snuck into the 100 high money in much the same way. Qualified for that from €2 so hopefully can continue that run at least a bit further. Have about 12 BB's or so.

Cruised into the money in the €1 nano but failed to make day 2 after a gambler decided to take an almighty 60/40 with me (my AQ to their K10) and it ended up in their favour. 

I just hope this is a turn in fortune because the rest of the day upto entering those events went much the same way as the rest of the week.

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@MetalWolf  the "real thing" which distinguish good (or strong) players from the "rest" is easy:

- good/strong player maintain all kind of swings he/she encounter and this is because he/she understand the game!

- the 'rest' are players which A) let's gamble rest bankroll or B) they cannot accept the fact that in poker you CAN be beaten by a LUCK or even SKILL factor

 

I'm totally sure you are the GOOD/STRONG player and you for sure able to maintain this super-long period of getting bananas! I'm also with you, may it came to the end as of today! Hope to see you high in leaderboards and you will have much more time for family as well. Wish you all the best, mate ♥️

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I'm doing better. I'm slowly moving up the leaderboards and getting the cashes in. But in the one final hand I played last night it told me everything I need to know about my current mental state and why I am not fit to be playing. 

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Anyone do anything different here and why?

I knew to fold pre. I had a read. I told @Charl_xoxox the read. I told her exactly what the hand was.

And then I moved allin. 

If I can't believe in myself then I can't play my 'A' game. I beat myself up for not having faith in the ability that sets me apart from the average player.

It cannot be underestimated what a bad run does to the mind no matter how refreshed you may claim to be at the start of each day. Anyone can learn to play well and make good decisions. But I think the best players are the ones that can completely block out any mental deviances that could affect their game. 

That decision could of been the difference between the €40+ inc bounties I cashed and the €570+ bounties for first place. Thats the fine lines we play with when we look at the difference between 'A' game and just playing on auto pilot. 

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I don't see how you could have played this hand any differently, 5 handed, the guy is a big stack in a bounty so he should be opening pretty wide. What was your read? Did he not open a single hand in an hour, at a 5 handed table? Was he minopening everything and raising bigger with premiums? I guess if you have a lot of confirmation of those reads you could fold, I gueeeess, but I'd have a very hard time folding this hand (and if I don't fold I shove) without playing with this guy in quite a few tournaments before this situation happened, since dynamics over a single tournament shift quite often.  

As for the mental game part, have you ever read The Mental Game of poker by Jared Tendler? I haven't myself but most people liked it a lot, although it clearly hasn't completely fixed everyone's mental game issues it's still probably way worth the 12$ price tag (on amazon, kindle version). You make that money back in a single tournament where maybe you feel better, if you haven't gotten it already.

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As @FeelsBadMan  said really, if he'd been tight for a while I would fold, if he was playing a lot I'm chucking it all in. Unfortunately I do the same, convince myself I'm behind but there's a disconnect between my brain and finger, and then I feel worse about it afterwards. Don't worry about what could have been, it won't help, you're going the right way. Onwards and upwards. 👍

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Yes,I know that feeling...that is the reason I asked you for your opinion on my hands/plays. 

I would play the same,that is for sure.Dont't see anything out of the line here.Philosophical,I/We could say tens would be bottom line,but think 99 are also fine.

Yeah,that really hurts when you are "so close,yet so far".Perfect example is my situation in E37.
I did play a bit defensively at later stage,but not because that extra 100€+ would make me more happier,rather to reach final table.
In an such a late stage every move is important,therefore folding even a premium hand/s could be justified,if we dont have all necessary infos about opponent.

I guess that is the charm of this game...You need to be emotional/passionate toward this game,yet you need to master that emotion in play.

 

Keep your head up and just put your knowledge into practice,I am sure it will payout.

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